
Ben & Jerry's - Yummy!
Now that I am working out regularly, I am really quite aware when I am hungry, but what is new is an awareness of being so hungry that I think my body is feels like it is actually drawing energy right from my muscle tissue. It is hard to put this into words really, but it is beyond just weariness or simple stomach growling… it actually feels like my body is consuming itself from inside just to keep my body parts going. If you have ever hear the term gnawing hunger, that might come close to describing the feeling. It is tolerable in the short-term, but not really a pleasant feeling. Fortunately, I try hard to eat regularly so it is also something that I have only “felt” a couple of times in the past 6 weeks. Unfortunately, the most recent time it occurred was late last night AFTER what I had eaten MORE that I felt necessary.
Let me explain a bit more. The boys needed to run off some “closed up too long in the house” energy so I took them to a couple of McDonald’s Playland locations. I definitely did NOT want to eat McDonald’s (sorry MickyD’s) so I had planned to get a sandwich from Panera on the way. Unfortunately, no Panera’s were close, but because we were going to be moving to a second Playland, I thought that I could make it just fine… I was wrong… I as my hunger grew, I NEEDED something, so I ate most of a grilled chicken sandwich (cheese and lettuce only) – Noah ate the rest – and a water… Then as we were moving to the second Playland, I DID stop at Panera and grab an Italian combo sandwich for “a snack and dinner”. (I knew we were going to be at the Playland for a bit…) I ate the entire sandwich shortly after arriving…
5 hours later, the boys were STILL not tired, but we headed home arriving about 9pm. When I got home, I knew I was hungry again, but I needed to get the boys to bed and then I needed to head to the grocery store to pick up a few things… That is when the cravings hit… Actually, on the way home the cravings hit… I WANTED a brownie batter concrete mixer from Culvers. Thankfully, there was not a convenient Culver’s on the way because I NEEDED a concrete mixer… Making it home without getting one was a success, but as I mentioned I was very hungry by now. I got the boys into bed and headed to the store all the while considering going 10 minutes out of my way to run through our neighborhood Culver’s. As I was weighing what to do, suddenly I became bone weary… not tired, but I felt drained and knew I needed protein. Then, I wanted to stop at Wendy’s for a burger, AND still head to Culver’s, but I could justify it by getting only a single (cheese and lettuce only), nothing to drink, no fries, then I could still get to Culver’s before heading to the grocery store. What was I thinking?!
Fortunately, I came to my senses, and did NOT go to Wendy’s or Culvers. However, now I was at a grocery store surrounded by food and I was bone weary with hunger. I knew I needed something to eat as quickly as possible as my body was now suffering just to keep me going. I wanted cheesecake, Oreos, chips and dip, anything with sour cream… I wanted pre-made chicken kiev and cordon blue… I wanted pizza and lunch meat… But, I stuck to my list and only my list. Well, with one exception… Ben & Jerry’s Chocolate Brownie Fudge ice cream… This was something I felt I could indulge in (and satisfy that Culver’s craving), but keep under control.
Drgging myself from the store with my entire body now aching with hunger, I drove back home and made an OK dinnerish snack… not the best, but much better than Wendy’s topped off by a Culver’s concrete mixer. I did eat the Ben & Jerry’s ice cream, but only about 5 spoonfuls to get some brownie and a bit of sugary chocolate to take the edge off. :0)
The best part was that immediately my body felt better, all of the weariness gone, and my head was clear. I am also happy that I could stick with what I knew to be better choices in the face of easy choices especially because of how hungry my body was… I know that this will happen to me again. How do you handle cravings? Do you eat on a schedule to avoid them? How do you stay on track opposed to giving in to easy?